I certainly don't think you're a 'conspiratorial nutter'
@Scrappy although I do take a bit of a cynical view to a lot of the folks on YouTube etc. and find myself wondering how many of them are trying to spread genuine truths about what's going on and how many are pushing their own version of things in order to make money or because they have their own agenda. When someone tries to sell me any idea I always ask myself what might be in it for them and what are their motives.
I always keep in mind the saying "Just because you are paranoid it doesn't mean they are not out to get you"
Personally I slice everything up on Occam's razor and accept the things that, quite frankly make sense to me or which there is clear proof of and discard what doesn't make sense. I think we have to be sceptical about everything now and trust is something that we must be very sparing with.