The Military Cross doesn’t come
up with the rations. Do you have the citation? The ribbon has yellowed but can be replaced for display while keeping the original for sentimental purposes.
My grandfather was gassed too but survived albeit succumbing to throat cancer in his early 70s. Serving on the gun lines damaged his hearing irrevocably and ended his violin playing; his upper register was literally shot. More significantly, his nerves weren’t great. Anyone who knew him said he returned somehow not quite the man he’d been.
I remember as a kid being taught by him to sharpen things and him slightly distant telling how they sharpened entrenching shovels. I didn’t understand. He said quite matter of factly that bayonets got stuck and you could be momentarily defenceless whereas a battle axe could maim several attackers in the initial rush. Oh I thought you were behind with the guns? Sometimes but my Morse was too good so I was routinely spotting from the front trench. He said little else to anyone.
He had a productive leave though as otherwise my mother would never have been born….